Saya Sedikit Sedih

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Nota Kepala : Hari ni mood sangat tak bagus, so tak sempat lak nak cerita pasal the awesome Redang.

Bukannya apa.

Saya ni takde la cemerlang sangat kat ofis. Boleh la cari makan. KompeniKedekutLetrik ni, saya dah lama dah putus harapan untuk di-reward atas dasar kecemerlangan. Dah bertahun-tahun dah. Even sebelum MissKLSentral resign lagi.

Tapi sejak dua tiga menjak ni, ramai pulak kawan-kawan saya yang resign. YY for one, has finally thrown in the towel and called it quits. Years of trying to weather it, obviously not working sunny enough.

Everytime, sorang kawan resign, saya termenung sendiri,

Kenapa aku masih kat sini? Adakah aku kurang talent berbanding dengan mereka? Adakah aku ni tak marketable langsung? Terlalu niche sangat ke kerja yang aku buat selama ni?

Nagai is out there menggeleng kepala sebab dah bertahun-tahun dia suruh aku resign but aku masih disini.

Let me tell you this. *cakap mat salleh la pulak, since nak tunjuk aku ni marketable, kalau x terer, goreng jangan cabar*

The only thing that's keeping me here is my passion. I love what I do. I love doing the things I do. I love my job. I love my colleagues. I love the exposure I get from the job. I love that I get the opportunity to do what I thought I couldn't but the bosses thought I could and I found that I could. I just love it. And I love my bosses.

Bukan la nak bodek. Boss-boss aku selama ni are the out-of-the-box types. Liberal ones and I love their outlook of life. Never bureaucracti, never picky and never ones to sweat over the small stuff.

Tapi kan, lately. It doesn't feel that way anymore. Boss pun dah lain. *sigh*

In fact, aku today am in my lowest ebb that I think I've ever been in. Nak jerit pun ada. Nak nangis pun ada.

Moments like this memerlukan satu pinggan warm walnut brownies dengan vanilla ice-cream with 4 spoons to share among friends. Or Zen's little cup of tiramisu. Or Chilli's Molten Chocolate Cake. Kalau dah terdesak pun, that 5-minit chocolate cake dalam mug boleh la.

Sigh!

Nota Kaki : Takde motif langsung post ini hari. Rugi je if you're already here. Mintak maaf la.

10 growls by fellow growlers ...:

mosh said...

i know you love me that much. but that shouldn't stop you from spreading your wings around.

zan said...

silalah distribute CV anda for a change of wind and cheers to a slice of apple crumble cheese cake!!

*hugs*

mosh: ROTFL

butterflutter said...

Hugs.... There are always time like this. Time to sit down and ponder.

Btw you make hungry.

Anonymous said...

Grass is ALWAYS (look) greener on the other side.

By the time you or Herr Gart hit 40'ish. KKL is not such a bad place.Trust Me.

Suka doklaa.
Tak suka carik laa...

Tuhan Maha Kuat Kuasa :-)


But no regrets later yaaaa.


Jo

theotheraj said...

rindu aku la tu.. apa sangat la mosh tu, jom join aku hahaha

tu la, sapa suruh tak update resume and hantar ke mana2 ko nak. headhunters pun ada.

nagai said...

wah...sebut nama aku!
dang..im so humbled..

cheer up girl. uv got frens around still who luvs u.

when the time comes to move on..ull take the leap

Gartblue said...

Mosh babe .. lemme go and puke my face out first and then kiss you. Boleh ? love you too. *looks around nervously*

Zan .. nak CV aku tak? And yumms …

Butterflutter .. there are always moments like this, casting doubts and bringing us down, eh? But it has passed .. sebab hari ni jumaat!!

Jo .. ha ah kan? Especially greener bila ada orang tu asyik berjalan kesana kemari *tunjuk kat jo*. Uish .. 40? Jauh lagi tu, ah-jo. *kira jari*

Screw .. eee menyampah nya .. dah agak dah ..!

Nagai .. kena la sebut nama you .. hahaha .. true true .. friends I think I have a few .. and then the bridge is close, I’ll think anbout leaping .. in the meantime, bila nak lunch ?

elisa said...

I rasa kan lah
teruskan berdoa, you'll never know when the opportunity would come along.. Tapi in the meantime, just continue to give your best at what you're supposed to do, that's you responsibility and carrying out a responsibility is an ibadah, kan?
Insya-Allah, He will bestow you with only what is best for you.

cewah.. macam ustazah lah pulak. tee hee.

lazydaisy said...

kena pegi esq ni
hee hee
*orang baru balik dari esq*
:P

MissKLSentral said...

babe, why the sad note. Take it easy....it's good to update the CV and test the market....Anyway, if you're feeling down about work.....remind yourself it should only be 20% of your life.....not 110%. Look at those lil garties faces.

Anyway, am sure u're already fine by now. jom pi jogging!