Tis Fine, Really

Guess you guys guessed it right.

I missed the promotion.

I'm selecting this version to go by. I lost it because a better, finer manager than me deserves it more than me. Rather than this version I had in my mind that had the words "eMDee", "hates" "me" or "double promotion", "the hell you won't" do.

I told myself I was fine. I joked with friends that I'll stick here longer to torment you guys. I know I'm fine. I know I'll survive. But reality slapped me really, really hard. It stung. I thought I was made of sterner stuff. I know I am, but I'm letting my softer side rule for the next 3 days.

I wanted the post. I needed to get out of here. Not because I was getting sidelined here, but because I was on my ultimate high here and I wanted to leave when I was cherished and needed, not when I was getting unwanted. I also needed the money. I needed new challenges. I needed a change. And also the damning fact that my degree (ignoring the fact that I have a MSc) prevents me from even dreaming of higher posts and that POST was one of the few that I can even dream of getting. And I was perfect for it. In my mind at least.

Alright. Enough sorrow for a blog already. I'm dripping with self-pity now and even I don't like me now. This morning, people have started telling me, in case I don't know already, I missed the boat. Sigh!

I guess there are better posts for me in the future. Probably much better than this. And it's all tersurat anyway. Tuhan Maha Kaya. This is the best for me. Not getting this, though it hurts so much, is BEST for me. I know this.

So, folks, thanks for your support. Need retail therapy now. :)